Be patient...

This morning I was annoyed... My hubby does a lot off the grocery shopping so I don't have to with our 5 kids in tow... But this morning when I went to grab a granola bar I realized they were all peanut or peanut butter (I can hack them sometimes... But not my favorite and our 5 yr old... The only one who eats granola bars... Hates peanut butter)... So I immediately typed out a cute, but cutting type text to point out his "stupid mistake"... But did not hit send... I was suddenly nervous that it would ruin his day... Make him grouchy, and in turn make me grouchy... So I deleted the text and instead asked how he was doing... He was very busy and tired (good call me! On not texting that last text).
So I made an egg sandwich instead and as I sat down to eat it and read my Bible... I quickly open it, trying to get to John... But over-shot accidentally and hit Ephesians... Where Ephesians 4:2 jumped off the page and grabbed me by the ear and said "listen!"...
Always be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other's faults because of your love.

Love her to pieces... But still so annoyed!

Wow... My 12 year old is so sweet and I am constantly humbled and proud to be her mom... But sometimes she can boil my blood! Amazing how the negativity and sass of a child can change the mood of the day! I know I'm always telling my kids not to let your surroundings or the people you are with determine your happiness... But do I really have the strength to stay joyful when my 12 year old is mouthing off?! I'm so agitated I literally feel like kicking the dog... (To be fair... The dog was also whining at me cuz I refused to let her wander the grounds however she pleased).

Ask... Lord... I ask for patience and wisdom!
Seek... Proverbs... I think I need to read a little from there today.
Knock... Not sure how to apply this here... (Any suggestions?)

My current favorite song is "Breathe" by Jonny Diaz. (If you feel like you are running all day and can't catch your breath... It's a song you should look up.)

I'm up in my room right now... Cuz I stormed off from getting annoyed at listening to her complain about life... Real mature right?

Guess I gotta go back down..  I hear thumps and crashes (boys gone wild)...

Say a prayer and wish me luck! That I will survive this wonderfully crazy preteen time! That I will enjoy the pleasant times and be a good example and have much patience in the other times.