Battle of the blues...

When winter weather sets in... I get blue... While I love the search for the perfect gift, and the smell of pine. The very real fact that sickness is everywhere is almost paralyzing. I fear germs everywhere. The cold weather makes my joints hurt. And I become... Blue. Depressed. Overwhelmed. I battle it daily. This year is no exception. I feel like I'm it gets worse each year... Which freaks me out! Getting together with people only feeds the fear... Fear of catching something from them, or fear of giving them some bug that we didn't even know we had.
Vance has been diagnosed with epilepsy...and so has added doctor appointments... Increasing my fear. He has started on medication... Which is to be given twice a day... Which is so stressful. I feel so consumed with my own fear and frustrations that I have little left over. Where is the joy? How do I deal with all this and still show Joy?!! I have eternal hope and joy... I know that. But I'm talking daily joy. How do I stay joyful in the sickness and the stress and pain?